2003年09月25日(木) ■

Coffee Shop Date

I have a date tomorrow with a guy who lives in the U.S. But he is Japanease and 11 years older than I again!!!!!!!!! Well, anyway, We'll get a couple of coffee and have some talk, that's it. He worked for NTT DoCoMo before. Wow. Some times I don't know what I want to do. I just keep seaching my real thing, though. I am very complecated person to handle for me. Hum...

2003年09月22日(月) ■

F･R・I・E・N・D・S

I really like amrrican dramas, like Ally McBeal, Friends, Roswell, 91210 and more. Now, I often watch Friends. In that drama, I like Chandler Bing thet best. He's really funny, has sence of humor very much. And I like Monica. I know Drama is drama, but I want to have friends like them. 'cause it seems to be really fun. Today, I was thinking about my German ex. He and I were a kind bad relationship, I guess. For me, his behavier was unbelievable thing, you know. I mean it's terrible. He was togather with me only for having sex with me. Then, I just reached the point that it was not unusual thing. I found out that it often happens between man and woman. Isn't that right? I'm sure I'll never get used to that kind of thing. BUT it can happen. Oh, my. I hate that.

2003年09月21日(日) ■

Come See the Paradise

I've just came back from Okinawa. It was soooooooo wonderful Island!!!!!! I loved it. I wish I could show you my beatiful pictures. Well, I could forget some stuff what I had to think and get rid of my frastrations. Just lying on the beach, swimming with beatiful fishy in the amazing sea, talk and drink with my sweet friends. That's all I've done there. Of course, I've got a tan!!!! Now I'm completely brown bunny. I want to show you. Oh, YOU means my someone. hehe. Ok, never mind. Anyway, if I've got a chance I'll show you. Good night, sweetheart.

2003年09月14日(日) ■

Moet & Chandon

I drunk too much today. I tasted Moet & Chandon. It was sooooooooooo nice and delicious. I love Chanpange. It's from france. Oh,,,, that reminds me, Paul. hummmmmmmmm. I think I drunk too much 'cause I really need to forget him. Anyway, the day after tomorrow I'm going to Okinawa and have some fun.

2003年09月13日(土) ■

French Restaurant

I went a french restaurant with him. He.. ah, yeah, I mentioned before. It was fun.. but some part..hummmm, I got a strange feeling. And I have to say something. He is not 37 years old. I guess he is much older, about 45. No,,, I can't. He is too old for me. But he said, it's all up to me about our relationship. If I want to keep dating, we can do. If I don't want, it's over. Oh, no. He is rich. It is one thing bother me. I'm a bitch now. After all, I have to find someone who I can love. ANYWAY, let me forget it a while. Now, I'm watching "West wings". The guy, named Sam is cute. And CJ is very cool. She is smart, intelligent, has sence of humor. Ok, I'm doing some preview for my english class tomorrow and going to bed.

2003年09月12日(金) ■

Manhattan　Rhapsody

I saw this title of movie on BS11 tonight. It was very sweet story. I loved it. This is the story about two professers in COLONBIA Uni, US. They got married without sex. But they are good company until the woman notice that she's really into him. Even pure love needs sex, I think. No wonder, right? To love someone means having desire physically and mentally, doesn't it? And you can forgive everything about him or her. But you get angry easily with him or her because you love the one. Unfortunately, I've never have a such desire. Where is my someone? Ex-ex BF loved me sooooooo much but I couldn't forgive him everything. Then, ex BF cheated me all the time so I left him. Sometimes people say that I'll never fall in love with somebody, because I love myself so much and my idealds are fantasy actually. I don't get it!!! Why? I need somebody just like everybody do. What is the different? I tried to date some guys but they didn't hit it off. Is it my fault? hummmmmm, good night.

2003年09月10日(水) ■

Sweet Impression☆

hummm, typhoon is coming. Oh, my gosh... Please please God, bress us. Today, the french guy said"I'd like to take you to french restaurant on friday." Wow, what should I wear!? I have to take time to chose my clothes something suitable for french restaurant and man. I'm very popular amang guys who are older than I. Why?? Actually I look older than my age. Anyway, the thing bother me is a typhoon. Go away quickly 'till we go to Okinawa.

2003年09月09日(火) ■

9th Sep.

Today, I have nothing to do. Just have some coffee, writing and reading. This is my my favorite. It would be better if some movies add on this list. Now, I'm dating a French guy. He is 15years older than I. I don't think the relationship works but he offers me to help my life finacially. Unbeliebable, isn't it. It doesn't happen so often. Is it common in Europe to treat young lady like this? I was just surprised. Mmmm how can I handle it? I feel like that I am "Pretty Woman" in that Julia's movie. Let me think.....