The Five Senses
DiaryINDEXpastwill


2010年10月22日(金) kick that

i have been eliminating my negativities of my life.
i learned it, because was forced to do so. if i didn't force to learn it, i would have killed myself a while ago.

My best friend Jared told his friend a couple times that he wouldn't know what to do if he were in my situation.
of course a guy like him who has a stable job and doesn't have to worry about the status of living will not experience the extreme situation like i have.
well once you are in survival mode, you'll need to deal with the situation and try not to put yourself in the dark bottom.

I've been trying to smile and be happy at any cost to make myself go upwards, not towards down. otherwise, in these situation, you'll drawn in the mad and deep into the darkness..
it might sound like a clown, but no. i believe it's one of the keys to live happy as possible.

you stuck, struggle in the darkness.

when i die, i don't want to regret my life.
i don't care if i live short or long, but live without regret.
so why waste my time for being negative and drawn into the darkside.

i've done that and done with them.
for half year, my business sucked and frustrated with no dayoff,
my boyfriend didn't help me but made things worse.
i was stuck in between which destroyed everything.

now it's time to arise again..


2010年10月20日(水) island

i experienced.
i heard.

not enough




i am waiting for what's come up.
i just enjoy what's out there, what's with me right now.
i've got one that i can finally trust without doubts.



I don't have to leave anymore
What I have is right here
Spend my nights and days before
Searching the world for what's right here

Underneath and unexplored
Islands and cities I have looked
Here I saw
Something I couldn't over look

I am yours now
So now I don't ever have to leave
I've been found out
So now I'll never explore

See what I've done
That bridge is on fire
Going back to where I've been
I'm froze by desire
No need to leave

Where would I be
IF this were to go under
It's a risk I'd take
I'm froze by desire
As if a choice I'd make

I am yours now
So now I don't ever have to leave
I've been found out
So now I'll never explore


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