i have been eliminating my negativities of my life.
i learned it, because was forced to do so. if i didn't force to learn it, i would have killed myself a while ago.

My best friend Jared told his friend a couple times that he wouldn't know what to do if he were in my situation.
of course a guy like him who has a stable job and doesn't have to worry about the status of living will not experience the extreme situation like i have.
well once you are in survival mode, you'll need to deal with the situation and try not to put yourself in the dark bottom.

I've been trying to smile and be happy at any cost to make myself go upwards, not towards down. otherwise, in these situation, you'll drawn in the mad and deep into the darkness..
it might sound like a clown, but no. i believe it's one of the keys to live happy as possible.

you stuck, struggle in the darkness.

when i die, i don't want to regret my life.
i don't care if i live short or long, but live without regret.
so why waste my time for being negative and drawn into the darkside.

i've done that and done with them.
for half year, my business sucked and frustrated with no dayoff,
my boyfriend didn't help me but made things worse.
i was stuck in between which destroyed everything.

now it's time to arise again..

ai ｜MAIL